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TOTAL
DISFUNCTION
My
needs at home were not being met. There
was no security. I wasn’t sure what was
going to happen. I found myself clinging more to Dave and he didn’t like it. I gave him back his ring and we broke up.
Dave's
life and mine were like night and day. He had a good home life. His was
functional. Mine was not. I felt no one cared about me.
One
thing that lasted out of our relationship was my Siamese cat, Pye. Dave had given her to me when she was a
kitten. She was always there. When I cried
she climbed into my lap to comfort me. I
knew she loved me and I knew Bronco did also (even though I would get angry and
take my anger out on him...I did love him.) I also felt responsible for him.
Around this time, I decided I liked animals better then people. They always loved you unconditionally. Would not abandon you. And they were always with you when you needed them.
Around this time, I decided I liked animals better then people. They always loved you unconditionally. Would not abandon you. And they were always with you when you needed them.
Bronco
tolerated Ed more then I did. There were
a few times when I was in my room and Ed came and sat on the bed to talk to
me. Boldness would rise up inside me and
I would stand up against him with my words.
He would leave. I think his motive was to try to be my friend. But, I was not having any of it. I knew I could not trust this man.
(The boldness always surprised me. I am a gentle person, but on occasions when I could have been harmed in some way: the boldness would arise.)
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(The boldness always surprised me. I am a gentle person, but on occasions when I could have been harmed in some way: the boldness would arise.)
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A
bizarre thing happened. Ed’s brother,
his wife and baby came to our house and stayed a few days. Ed’s brother had just gotten out of
prison. I really did feel sorry for the
man; he seemed so broken in his spirit.
But I also was very uncomfortable after I found out he had been in
prison. (I wasn’t told why he had been in prison.)
Later on, I would hear Mom and Aunt Ruby speaking in hushed tones. When they saw I was listening, there would be glances between them, and then the subject would change.
What I had thought all along, would be confirmed.
Later on, I would hear Mom and Aunt Ruby speaking in hushed tones. When they saw I was listening, there would be glances between them, and then the subject would change.
What I had thought all along, would be confirmed.
